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I am the full moon hiding in broad daylight, waiting for you to notice me.
I am the gentle breath, moist at the back of your neck while you rest in the warm sun, listening as the hopeful surf crashes hard on the sand.
I am the neglected young poet, brash, full of candor bitterness and wit, waiting to slice you open, to turn you inside out with my double edged tongue.
I am the scent of linens laundered in a new soap fresh and crisp from having dried in the salty early morning air.

Fresh Start

In order to motivate myself to start a daily private journaling habit, I will be engaging in a daily writing activity in connection with 750words.com.  Simply put, I am committing to the December daily writing challenge of 750 words a day.  I will likely complain about it here.  Currently, my name resides on the Wall of Shame. I am actually re-take the challenge in December. When I succeed in writing 750 words every day of the month, my name will be added to the Wall of Amazingness. And my name will be wiped off of the Wall of Shame.

In addition, I have optionally pledged to the following self-created rewards and punishments…

If I succeed, I will Treat myself to drinking a $20.00 bottle of wine at night instead of an under $10.00 bottle.  Additionally I will have the added bonus of having at least enough fodder accumulated to create a few fictitious characters. That is obviously the main goal in inflicting myself with this daily task. If I miss one day or more, I will donate $15.00to help support 750 Words.

I will also berate myself for failing here, for all to read.

Stay tuned. Think I can do it? Bets?

Care to join me? 750words.com

Kundalini Yoga

Well, seeing as I have not written a post here in quite some time, actually since we moved into this house, now is the time!  My friend Lisa is teaching me Kundalini.  I am forever a changed woman, and forever grateful to her.  I have started reading The Artists way and am stalled at chapter 2.  Monday begins Vivienne's online course, "You are your own Muse", and circular saws are blaring from the neighbors backyard excavation project.  Olivia needs a haircut.

Photo #61 from forrester Family | Pictage

Photo #61 from forrester Family | Pictage

Men and Women

I sent the following quote to my husband, in an email yesterday.  I thought it might help him to understand me better when I am feeling creative and inspired.

'It may also be that a woman's creative process is misunderstood or disrespected by those around her. It is up to her to inform them that when she has "that look" in her eyes, it does not mean she is a vacant lot waiting to be filled. It means she is balancing a big cardhouse of ideas on a single fingertip, and she is carefully connecting all the cards using tiny crystalline bones and a little spit, and if she can just get it all to the table without it falling down or flying apart, she can bring an image from the unseen world into being.'

~ Clarissa Pinkola Estes, Women Who Run With the Wolves

This was his thoughtful and eloquent response, "Me Tarzan, you Jane."
I think that pretty much explains our entire relationship!

On another note, I have fallen sadly behind on the photo a day Flickr group for Unravellers.  I have not forgotten to take the photos, in fact I have more than enough for each day.  I have just failed thus far at posting them to the group. I thought i would have time this week to post them, since the kids are out of school for "ski-week."  But, the kids are out of school, which means that i have done alot of mommying and entertaining.  So I have have many beautiful images of our daily excursions.  Horseback riding, touring the San Juan Mission, park visits, shopping, lunch dates.....

I will put them online tonight.

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Project 365! 2010

I have been contemplating joining one of these Flickr groups for quite sometime.  Finally, I am pleased to say that have now committed, and will be submitting a photo a day on my own Flickr photo stream, and also on the official group photo-stream Project 365! 2010.  Right now there are over 100 members of the group.  The goal is to shoot a photo a day, and as a record for the year.  Plus, it keeps me motivated to vary the content of my photographs.

Jen Lee

Maybe Jen Lee has the answers. Saddended and remorseful feelings cross over me, through me and they burn me, while listening to her podcast on sober hopefulness.
Shit, now I am depressed.
How will I tuck the girls into bed now and still keep a positive attitude.
I just sent the following email to Jen Lee, regarding my feelings:
I did not know that was in there, in you, I mean.
You are touching my most secret unspoken about thoughts.
Why?
I am kind of irritated, not in the mood to confront my demons right now.
Why did you have to open that......
I am certainly feeling unsettled by your pod cast.
What are you going through?

Perhaps the same as me, but I am too weak
I am too proud
I am too fake 

I must be a fake Happy Hippie Housewife

I suck